josh

and

i

got

back

together

but im still done with xanga

josh

and

i

broke

 up.

im all done with xanga.

i havnt signed this in an extremly long time. my space is like so much better. i used to hate it but i never really gave it a try. now everyone has a myspace. yeahh.. cheerleading starts today. and sam comes home =). lets see. go back about a week ago, i went to canobie with josh, vinny some other dude then thiesco came. all josh's friends and i was with janel. and it was loads of fun. very sad leaving him. and well he was supposed to come to my cheering practise some time this week but his mom wont let him. its sad. but ehh thats life. amd well we can plan to go to the movies anways because if we both drive half way its only 20 minutes. yeah and i also got a new comp in my room. im very happy. im up like everynigth to 1 or later. mommy never knows. hehe. yeah. sign in a few weeks i guess?

 NO MORE XANGA!!! its getting boring. and i really dont like keeping up with it anymore. myspace is funner. more people comment..

ill come in here maybe once in a while..

comment on my choice.

myspace

edit. so i dropped sam off at the airport. yes. sad. i know. hmm. yeah thats really all i have say. josh is moving today. in the same town tho. and i talke to him twice today for liek 5 minutes. and im happy he called. i thought it was cute, because hes so busy. so im glad he took the time out for me =) makes me feel loved. hehe. yeah and dave just called. him and am want to hang out. but a few minutes ago i was in my room hanging up pictures and what not. and right now im watching an old episode of laguna beach. yyeah im gonna go finsish my room. then hang with cam and dave. sign later. xox

i love you joshie <33

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hmm. so lets see. yesterday i was just hanging around the house. i didnt really feel like doign anything. and i was supposed to go over sams but my mom wouldnt let me because i didnt do my chores and i needed to get my summer reading book which i could not find. urgh waiste of time that i could have been spending with sam. shes gone now. damn im gonna miss my blonde bitch. hehe jkk sam i love you =) yesterday i bought this pair of ginormous hooped earings and i had to like re-peirce my ear. well there was like just s little part that it wouldnt go through. it didnt hurt tho, it just bleeded(and i know that word is not the right word to say so shut up ) a little bit. yeah so dave and cam v. called me yesterday to see if i wanted to hang out. but i was busy so im porlly hanging out with them today. and ill prolly end up with nathan pj cam s. and donika too. and im no longer goign to see john. urgh omg. he was all pissed at me cuz i have a boyfriend. and he was like "

john: stay the hell away from me when you go camping.
me: why
john: cuz you have a bf
me: so...
john: well you lied to me again
me: no i never said i wouldnt have a bf
john: well i have a gf, and i was gonna cheat on here with you but i guess not.
me: wtf. i wouldnt have done anything with you even if i was single
john: w/e bye

yeah, retarded, i know. then in his little buddyprofile his countdown thing was " days until i never see abby again. yay " and i was like wtf. one. he doesnt even know how to spell my name right. and two. he was the one crying cuz he wouldnt see me again. then on his quiz thing two questions were

" who do i hate the most " a. abby. b. me. c. you.
" whos the biggest backstabber in the world" a. me. b. you. c. abby.

 i mean wtf hes urghh!!! and then i was like to him you know what i never loved you. and im not gonna go camping with you anymore you screwed this for yourself. and then he got all. im so sorry i love you and im sorry but that how i feel. and shit liek that. and then he was beggin me to go but screw him. hes like all fucked up. so my mommy said i can go to cannobie lake on sunday with josh!!!!! yay! im so exctied!!!!

yeah so comment on the retard.

i love you joshie bear <33

edit. so yeah. i guess josh's step dad found out where i live, now we cant have 8 hour talks anymore. ahah long distance bites my ass. but we can talk for like under an hour a day. but after 9 i can call him for free on my moms cell. but the only thing is i dont get good reception. whatever. we have AIM so thats good too. and im going over sams house when my mommy gets home. so ill sign later. i love you josh <33

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hmm. last ngiht my cousinz came over. and my four year old cuzin travis, was like wike dhyper and we were playign like nick jr. songs or w/e on the internet and he was singing and jumping from the coffee table to the couch and omg it was hillarious. you just had to be there. and after they left my mom needed the computer so i went upstairs and i wrote and extremly long poem that im gonna eventually turn into a song, well actually, i already have, but i just need a beat and what not. and yeah. so sams leavin tommorow. and im gonna miss her, so i want to hang out before she leaves. but yaeh. my mom is taking me to abercrombie tonight. huge sale =) woot woot. yeah so i was like falling asleep around 11:30 last night and the fone rang and my mom picked up, and it was josh. hahaa silly boy <33 hehe. yeah

so heres the poem:

i love you in all the ways i can not explain,
the words i feel towards you don't develope in my brain,
you put a huge smile on my face,
and you manage to make my heart race,
you hold me tightly with a passionate grip,
my heart is tied with ribbons to yours so it will not rip,
you have possestion of my life and soul,
take care of it and dont let it go,
I have given you the rest and best of me,
My love is in your hands, thats where i want it to be,
In any moment you could let go of it, leading me to fall,
Causing no one to catch me or break my fall at all,
my heart is like glass so be carefull it could break,
i hope that this is not to much for you to take,
we could end this now and do nothign but the best,
though bits of me will shatter, its better than the rest,
a decision will be made without regret,
a choice with out lies, drama or being upset,
you came to me with open arms and let me in,
this is far from a loss, and olny a win,
i can forever promise you i will stay true,
and always know that i do love you,
But dont say it back, unless you mean it,
Dont fake it either, because ive already seen it,
Love is a journey not a destination,
Time we spend together will not be awaisten,
I am yours and you are mine,
Come on lets go, were ready to shine,
The love in our hearts ignite like a flame,
Being with you causes no shame,
As long as we have eachother i am all set,
You are my realest lover and the best yet,
Thought there may be more to come,
No matter what you'll always be my number one.

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